Day 29

i am thinking to put this blog into pause forever. I have a new blog full of melancholic words... If only life wasn't unfair... 

Day 28

Just because someone is good at something doesn't mean that everyone else should be.
Just because someone catches up things quickly doesn't mean they can look down to others.
They just can't.
They can't make other people feel worthless.

People in this solitary world makes me sick. I want to puke all the things that they have ever said to me and made me feel bad. I want to puke it at their face and let them feel how terrible i felt.
who has the right to say that you are not worthy of living? Who holds the right to say that you aren't good enough? I am lost in my own conclusion about human beings. Why are their hearts full of ego, hatred and jealousy? why can't they just  hold someone's hand and teach them how to draw a smile? Why can't they teach how to put that smile on someone's face? Why? why people here are so self centered ?

Everyone wants to impress someone. Everybody wants to look good in-front of others.

Day 27

why people we love hurts the most?
why people are so fucking blind?
why are they so inconsiderate?

Day 26

my third term ended a week ago. I am decaying inside my room with no fruitful deed. I have been gaming all the time, watched more than 10 movies already, feeling sick for not being active in anything.

I downloaded new online game called LOL referred by my brother KIDDO(dipson).

My fourth term starts from monday -,-

But excited :) atleast will be busy in something.

I am planning to sort my assignments and submission on time this term so pray for me T.T

I will be back in hk for christmas :3

finally meeting my family after one year:)

ah my birthday as well which is in first week of jan will be celebrating with them this year:)

what else?? 

Oh want to see my draped dress? made out of muslin?

i was sick for two weeks . I had pending works to finish so i had little to finish it. Finishing is really awkward ..

I will upload more works of mine but i always ended up doing them in no time which means i don't get time to take pictures >.< gomenasai.

kkk

Day 25

Ever felt so alone that you wish you were dead?
Felt nothing even with the person who holds your breathe
Ever cried for not being able to achieve anything?
felt like closing your eyes and drowning deep that you would never see this part of the world
Ever repeated same song for 24 hours?
Felt that one song can only understand you
Ever  felt this way?


I am trying to leave every thing behind
but i can't get rid of these feelings
should i keep trying or quit?

Day 24

When I see you, the world stops.
 It stops and all that exists for me is you and my eyes staring at you.
 There’s nothing else. No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow.
 The world just stops, and it is a beautiful place, and there is only you."


Busy with upcoming senior's graduation fashion show.
Pray for me.

Day 23

Anyone awake?

Day 22

Please listen to this. Listen to each and every video she has in youtube <3

I cried nile listening her because she is amazing. Whenever she speaks, she tears my heart apart or chills down my spine and rises again to be a better human being, daughter, sister, friend and a lover <3

Goodnight
Sweetdreams
<3

Day 21

Beautiful tuesday morning.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LOVE <3
A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY WITH HEARTFULL OF WISHES AND INFINITE LOVE

AROUND 12 AM WE HOLD A SMALL PARTY FOR HIM.
BOTH OF US WERE OVER CLOUD NINE.
BIRTHDAY BOY IS SLEEPING RIGHT NOW WITH HIS HAIR SPIKY LIKE BABY AND HIS LIPS POUTING HAHA:)
WELL WHAT COULD I SEE THAN THIS FASCINATING SLEEPY FACE OF HIM.

I KISS HIM GENTLY I DON'T WANT TO WAKE HIM UP.
IT'S HIS DAY HE SHOULD BE DREAMING ABOUT BEAUTIFUL THINGS TODAY.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN I WHISPER TO HIS EAR I HOPE HE HEARS ME.
ITS HIM. ALWAYS BEEN HIM AND FOREVER BE HIM <3
I LOVE YOU.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DALLU <3

Day 20

Yamato  

One Million Yen and the Nigamushi Woman

letters from Kanai Nirai

.Hana and Alice

Turtles Swim Faster Than Expected

About Her Brother

 Welcome to the Quiet Room

all about lily chou chou

The Lightning Tree

Patisserie Coin de Rue (2011)

Don’t Laugh At My Romance

Aoi movies

incase you wonder  who she is and why am i so fanatic of her since 2007? <3
latest japanese band i have been listening to
~Perfume
~one ok rock
~andy mori
~Toe
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I am having these restless assignments 

whole bunch of fashion history, sketching, coloring and shits.

I am just tired.

Tired of myself knocking with wise words and always looking for things to get inspired

There's a thirst inside my heart, thirst of being inspired i really need inspirations to live my life.

Else i can't live. Why don't anyone on this frigging lonely planet understands that at all?

Dreams are dreams.dreaming about impossibilities you want in your life.

Loving someone with your whole heart and getting deceive in return sucks to core.

suckers hackers rhymes well. Trying to hack my life down (praying for you) 

stalkers! well hi there welcome to my depressive page hope you find hell here.

living alone and trying to figure out your life is a disaster.

Being used in someone's hard time and being ignored in one's is pathetic.

May be i am looking down to myself more like an abandon senile thing.

covered in dust, smelly environment, unnoticed and unloved.

last two days i cried my heart out.

Something happened that broke my heart made me too pessimistic to care about my life anymore.

“All great and precious things are lonely.”

Day 19

two days off.

still had to work on my projects

didn't go anywhere nor did anything.

i haven;t finished reading my books

cause of college hectic schedule.

I am watching movies alot lately

its not like i didn't use to but now more than ever.

heard this heart wrenching news from my sis.

i used to work in this coffee shop named pacific coffee shop which is in hk.

one of the staff who was immensely kind died in car accident last friday.

he was only 20 years of age.

whenever someone close to me suffers

i always feel like life is so fucking unfair.

Dear God,

                We know you have our ERIC with you please make him dance around angels with his halo on.

because he was a very definition of kindness, a good person with beautiful soul.

I hope you won't dissapoint us this time. Do please takecare of him and tell him that we love him <3

"I don’t know what they are called, the spaces between seconds– but I think of you always in 

those intervals."

Day 18

New beginnings are here:)
happy new year everyone.
I hope you enjoyed and welcomed new times of your life with extra sugary moments and smile.
As for me it was usual.
attended class, submitted my work, downloaded japanese movie.
whilst coming home i brought something to treat ourselves.
Brought flowers btw there's a deep connection between me and these flowers
prepared delicious dinner.

I love imperfection

I don't perfectly like neat sketches, or anything that tries to be perfect.

"Life is painful and messed up. It gets complicated at the worst of times, and sometimes you have no idea where to go or what to do. Lots of times people just let themselves get lost, dropping into a wide open, huge abyss. But that’s why we have to keep trying. We have to push through all that hurts us, work past all our memories that are haunting us. Sometimes the things that hurt us are the things that make us strongest. A life without experience, in my opinion, is no life at all. And that’s why I tell everyone that, even when it hurts, never stop yourself from living."

Day 17

Been through alot of unexpected things last month.
Learned alot but trying not to be too sensitive that it will make me
think like i dont fit in.
finally giving myself a time
i am trying to read three novels plus my research history of civilisation
books i.e how fashion evolved during bc era.
It's surprisingly curious to know about human beings being so intelligent than now in 21st century.
Enjoying each and every class of this module and our lecturer's positive statement.
Watching korean/japanese movies lately. It brings that innocent feeling of been teenage again.
Enjoy your life, forgive who upsets you instead pray for them, love your loved ones and don't forget to free your mind :)


Here's my tumblr http://lifeistooshorttodressbad.tumblr.com/
explore :)

LET THE POWER OF SELF LOVE BE SO STRONG THAT WE NEED NOT WORRY ABOUT THE OPINIONS OF OTHERS.

Day 16

vacation are always boring i f you don't plan anything interesting to keep you breathing.

list of what i am going doing right now

download movie,anime,songs,

read books,blogs

sketch

 World of Warcraft

insomniac

starving

right now i am in college with my  friend

sharing  same desk

well i am dodging off whilst writing this

what else? errr nothing

cause staying room by myself  is getting killed by loneliness.

“I was born lost and take no pleasure in being found.”

Day 15.

22nd march.

three years of togetherness.

plus sewing exam and it was pretty good:)

my lecturer was happy cause i did everything that she taught us.

she is more like a friend than a teacher:)

we brought cake,made delicious meal

watched anime, played games

hmm what else we did? he read a card i brought for him months ago:D

i love him:)

I SEE YOU EVERYWHERE, IN THE STARS, IN THE RIVER, TO ME YOU ARE EVERYTHING THAT EXISTS; THE REALITY OF EVERYTHING <3

Day 14

YAY done with exam xD

pretty good :)

term break 2 weeks

thinking of making garments for my sisters as their birthday gifts:)

pray for me:D

drafting exam.

Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could. 

Day 13

hectic month of all. Had to flew back to my place for freaking 24 hours. flight missed and so much dramatic situation =.=! can i hate march?

back to my first module.Presentation was quite okay. First presentation no idea of doing anything?

here's my first garment:)

 inspired by jun takahashi winter collection

drapped skirt .

YOU CAN'T LIVE POSITIVE LIFE WITH NEGATIVE MIND.

Day 12

so my exam is on 14th,15th, 21st and 22nd of following month.
 appearing for paper after almost 3 years is challenging.

drafting project(shirt)

TALENT IS LUCK, THE IMPORTANT THING IN LIFE IS COURAGE.

Day 11

monday class. second attempt of using water colours:)

INSPIRATION IS EVERYWHERE, BE OPEN TO EVERYTHING:)

Day 10

finally submitted my coursework
 i missed updating my blog.
so here's the glimpse of what kept me busy

YOU'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO LOOK BACK

YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO KEEP GOING.

Day 9

another day of stupidity
reached college at 9am when i had to attend my 9:30am class
almost forgot about time.
couldn't get proper sleep ughhhh
sewing class was so-so couldn't complete my skirt
cant find my other bow :D

HAVE A HEART THAT NEVER HARDENS,  AND A TEMPER THAT NEVER TIRES, AND A TOUCH THAT NEVER HURTS.

Day 8

going to bed

exhausting day.

i will definitely upload pictures tomorrow.

including bow:3

goodnight :)

Day 7

so i attended my class
meetings for watch design and uk's new dummy's product.
draping class was fun
we had to drape something from magazine
i was starving to death had food around 7 in the evening :\
i am craving for Thai,korean and Viet cuisine
miss spicy Chinese noodles at the same time
 yes i miss Hong kong more often.

undercover.

ITS NOT ABOUT BEING  WHAT EVERYONE WANTS YOU TO BE,

ITS ABOUT BEING YOURSELF AND FINDING SOMEONE WHO TRULY LOVES YOU

FOR WHAT YOU ARE.

Day 6

so tell me what it feels like when heart breaks?

you shot me right in my heart 

I don't know if i can ever be good enough for you

i was right, i couldn't complete you.

sometime, love isn't everything.

drafting class, i forgot to complete my assignment 

had to draft two skirts. If i don't remember next time,

someone will give me death..

sketching watches for watch design competition

well everything is basically floral with bright colors.

i couldn't concentrate enough to produce innovative designs.

pats herself*

THERE ARE THINGS THAT WE DONT WANT TO HAPPEN 

BUT HAVE TO ACCEPT,

THINGS  WE DON'T WANT TO KNOW

BUT HAVE TO LEARN,

AND PEOPLE WE CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT

BUT HAVE TO LET GO.

Day 5

late late late
woke-up late aiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
we used water colours today:)
sketching class was so much fun..
i made two neck bows
btw its drafting class tomorrow
god save me.
happy valentine's day :)
i wish you be together with your loved one <3



LET LOVE FIND YOU.

I LOVE YOU:)

Day 4

just caught by the date two days left to be valentine's day
well not an exciting day for me,
special one is there but ....
well, i woke up around 10:30 am today.
had breakfast washed my cloths and watched a movie name stepmother.
very touchy lines and inspiring dialogues.
i have planned to sketch anything not long hair this time..
ermm something good enough for my room.

YOU WERE BORN BECAUSE YOU ARE GOING TO BE IMPORTANT TO SOMEONE...

Day 3

 not my day .
lost my precious muffler, couldn't finish my coursework
dissapointment and much more.
this feeling is tearing me apart.
trying to give up on you.
trying to figure out my life
trying to get over the things you said.
going to stay at my room till monday morning.

note: going to make bow and baby collar for my shirts and t-shirts..
need to indulge in something to free myself...

IN ODER TO MOVE ON, YOU MUST KNOW WHY YOU FELT THE WAY YOU DID
AND WHY YOU NO LONGER NEED TO FEEL IT...

Day 2

visited market area for my next stitching class
bought a floral fabric for a skirt  :D
didnt find a decent one hence,ended up bringing something out of my favorite list.
2012 is going to be an another hectic year but  i am going to stay positive.

WITHOUT HOPE, WE HAVE NOTHING.

Day 1

living my dreams if i am not lying to myself. Doing what i wished to and being what i always wanted to be.

got into fashion school. New place and faces, difficult to adapt but im trying. Busy with courseworks. Its a blissfull feeling making dresses, touching each and every yarn of fabrics. Patterns, twist and turns, innovative designs.To me, its a fascination:)

in drafting class.

sketching my draping project

listening to girls talking 

starving

                                                     YOU ARE WHAT YOU LISTEN TO.